i think my blog may become just a place to share words honestly. idk if it should be a place to write about whats going on in my life, a place to share writings ive put effort into (i do that enough in school so probably not), or a place to share just random thoughts. well thinking about what i like to read on other's sites, i like to read about daily life and thoughts cuz thats where most the personality is shown. but idk, cuz if its a place for writing about my life then itd probably be 1 blog every ehhhhh week or few weeks? maybe few months if im occupied. but if its thoughts then it coudl be liek 3 blogs a DAY. sigh i want to just redesign my whole blog now. cuz like in the homepage its represented by a bookshelf, its supposed to be somewhat a library i guess where you can find different forms of words. thats what the idea was. i also thought about putting the recipes in here but i think thought maybe the recipes could be their own separate place like a kitchen? or a vending machine like it is on the homepage. ugh now im thinking the whole site could use a revamp. hmmmmmm yk maybe i coudl group the recipes in here and then have the vending machine just be like some interactive vending machine page that just exists for funsies. thats cute maybe ill do that. ALSO i wanat to change all the courrier new text on my site to monospace, monospace looks sm nicer. what was i thinking.. OH okay so the reason did all this rambling is cuz i have 2 thoughts to share. 1. i wish there was a way to google things without images of it showing up (cuz just searching medical conditions is scary) and 2. i hate how any interest i have HAS to be used for monetary gain or else im just wasting my time. like in my mind i know this isnt true, but everytime i cook something well, code something cool, anything, my family will see it and ask me why im not making money from it. i know they mean it in a positive way and theyre right that making money from soemthing i enjoy is ideal, but i know thats all they think of me. they dont care about what, they care about making money from me. and if im not making money from what im doing then its a waste of time. why cant i just enjoy things and not have to try to please them 24/7? on a completely unrelated note, I MADE A ZINE.not irl cuz i like designing digitally and ive been really into making word art in photopea but still!!! i guess its a webzine and i saw this zine someone made where they just illustrated scenes from their friends book, and i thought that was such a fun idea and though im not the best at drawing, i can doodle. so i doodled to the lyrics of "That's Life" by Still Woozy cuz yk i love Still Woozy. so yeah! it was really fun! i want to add it to this site somewhere sometime soon :)